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11-18-2005, 03:47 AM
style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/wub.gif Having bad day ,just been to mother inlaws ,had to clean kitchen ,boy was it bad ,it was a health hasserd my daughter was with me she done the bathroom .
but now i am hurting and flaring again and my tummy is hurting again like tummy cramps again so fed up .
she has a cat poor old thing and the litter was full i don,t think she is cleaning it
i have just had another row with my hubby about it all ,she needs help and no one is listening to me .
on top of that i feel so guilty not helping as much as i should ,i hate myself tonight . style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/crying.gif
surley i can do this i tell myself its just a couple of days a week ,. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/shrug.gif
but i feel so ill after wards,
she needs a home help .
but she says she doesen,t want strangers in the house .
on top of it all shes telling me to go back too work ,she says it will be good for me .
why don,t people understand style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/aww.gif you look well therefore your not ill .
its all in your head oh my god i wish it was .
i am trying so hard and i just can,t do this .
my son is 27 and i can,t get him to move out and my daughter has just moved back in again because of splitting up with boyfriend and can,t afford flat on her own.
I feel like running away .
its my 50th next year and i thought this was soposed to be our time ,mine and my hubbys
you know all i want is for them to be settled and happy and not giving me so much work .I love them too bits .
but how much longer do I have have too take this, if i was not ill it would be fine .
I put a face on as i call it, because theres allways a girl friend in or someone else ,and i hide how i feel .
so there fore i end up on here moaning in the middle of the night when i should be in bed .
i have been trying for the last year too sort them all out but no one is listing too me.
I feel so exasted i end up screaming at my hubby and he doesent deserve that .
sometime i wish people could see it . style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/cool.gif i hate myself for not being strong enough tink
my daughter is going on about Noni juice i should try it it will help ,i know she means well but i worry its just going to be another allergic reacthion .
and we had another furneral today not close friend more a father of a friend of my husbands ,so I opted out ,and did not go because we know about furnels and stress .but now i feel so guilty .
why can,t i get my life back on track tink.
but now i am hurting and flaring again and my tummy is hurting again like tummy cramps again so fed up .
she has a cat poor old thing and the litter was full i don,t think she is cleaning it
i have just had another row with my hubby about it all ,she needs help and no one is listening to me .
on top of that i feel so guilty not helping as much as i should ,i hate myself tonight . style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/crying.gif
surley i can do this i tell myself its just a couple of days a week ,. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/shrug.gif
but i feel so ill after wards,
she needs a home help .
but she says she doesen,t want strangers in the house .
on top of it all shes telling me to go back too work ,she says it will be good for me .
why don,t people understand style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/aww.gif you look well therefore your not ill .
its all in your head oh my god i wish it was .
i am trying so hard and i just can,t do this .
my son is 27 and i can,t get him to move out and my daughter has just moved back in again because of splitting up with boyfriend and can,t afford flat on her own.
I feel like running away .
its my 50th next year and i thought this was soposed to be our time ,mine and my hubbys
you know all i want is for them to be settled and happy and not giving me so much work .I love them too bits .
but how much longer do I have have too take this, if i was not ill it would be fine .
I put a face on as i call it, because theres allways a girl friend in or someone else ,and i hide how i feel .
so there fore i end up on here moaning in the middle of the night when i should be in bed .
i have been trying for the last year too sort them all out but no one is listing too me.
I feel so exasted i end up screaming at my hubby and he doesent deserve that .
sometime i wish people could see it . style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/cool.gif i hate myself for not being strong enough tink
my daughter is going on about Noni juice i should try it it will help ,i know she means well but i worry its just going to be another allergic reacthion .
and we had another furneral today not close friend more a father of a friend of my husbands ,so I opted out ,and did not go because we know about furnels and stress .but now i feel so guilty .
why can,t i get my life back on track tink.