jm_jazzy
04-08-2006, 03:46 PM
Hi all,
As some you may remember my husband is away in NYC until the start of May. He will have been gone for three months and at seven months pregnant I can't wait for his return. He left only after I told him to go something along the lines of I am not sick just pregnant and I have actually been quite well.
During his abscence I have discovered that 'our' friends are actually his friends and I haven't heard from hardly anyone. Actually the entire time he has been away I have heard from three people other than my family and only one more than once. The others wanted help of some sort. I have phoned a few to see if they were doing anything or text them to catch up and I haven't heard a thing.
In retrospect, my friends disappeared around the time I was sickest. I wasn't any fun anymore I didn't have the energy to go out and sometimes not even to talk on the phone. They said I only talked about my illness. I didn't I just hadn't much to say because I was too sick to do anything. I never really noticed that they stopped calling and just thought that they had move on as friends sometimes do. As hubby and I had lots of other friends it didn't seem such an issue. Last year hubby threw me a birthday party and they didn't show up. I figured I was better off without friends like that, and wasn't overly worried. When I got pregnant I called them to share the news but they weren't that interested.
I am not the easiest person to get along with but I didn't think I was that bad. Although I am sure I will make some new friends in the future, I am a little upset to discover that overall, there is no one there for me. I shouldn't complain because hubby usually is and will be back soon. But it is not really good to have no one else.
Although I have you guys to talk to, I am feeling quite alone and I am not sure I will be able to make the effort required once I have a new baby. I guess I am feeling a little surprised that I don't actually have anyone and it has taken me 2 months to realise. Funny thing is although i am feeling lonely, I am not overly upset by it, just annoyed at myself for not making more of an effort to get to know other people. I had plenty of opportunities it just seemed so draining. I am sure you understand how hard it is to smile and be nice when you are so tired and grumpy you want to scream. The people I work with often comment on how I have changed now I am pregnant. Much nicer, they say. Ummm no, actually I have changed because I am feeling well for once.
Anyway I have you guys which is a great help, it would be nice though to have someone to call up to chat or to have coffee with.
Bye for now.
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As some you may remember my husband is away in NYC until the start of May. He will have been gone for three months and at seven months pregnant I can't wait for his return. He left only after I told him to go something along the lines of I am not sick just pregnant and I have actually been quite well.
During his abscence I have discovered that 'our' friends are actually his friends and I haven't heard from hardly anyone. Actually the entire time he has been away I have heard from three people other than my family and only one more than once. The others wanted help of some sort. I have phoned a few to see if they were doing anything or text them to catch up and I haven't heard a thing.
In retrospect, my friends disappeared around the time I was sickest. I wasn't any fun anymore I didn't have the energy to go out and sometimes not even to talk on the phone. They said I only talked about my illness. I didn't I just hadn't much to say because I was too sick to do anything. I never really noticed that they stopped calling and just thought that they had move on as friends sometimes do. As hubby and I had lots of other friends it didn't seem such an issue. Last year hubby threw me a birthday party and they didn't show up. I figured I was better off without friends like that, and wasn't overly worried. When I got pregnant I called them to share the news but they weren't that interested.
I am not the easiest person to get along with but I didn't think I was that bad. Although I am sure I will make some new friends in the future, I am a little upset to discover that overall, there is no one there for me. I shouldn't complain because hubby usually is and will be back soon. But it is not really good to have no one else.
Although I have you guys to talk to, I am feeling quite alone and I am not sure I will be able to make the effort required once I have a new baby. I guess I am feeling a little surprised that I don't actually have anyone and it has taken me 2 months to realise. Funny thing is although i am feeling lonely, I am not overly upset by it, just annoyed at myself for not making more of an effort to get to know other people. I had plenty of opportunities it just seemed so draining. I am sure you understand how hard it is to smile and be nice when you are so tired and grumpy you want to scream. The people I work with often comment on how I have changed now I am pregnant. Much nicer, they say. Ummm no, actually I have changed because I am feeling well for once.
Anyway I have you guys which is a great help, it would be nice though to have someone to call up to chat or to have coffee with.
Bye for now.
Jodie style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/wub.gif