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Tracker
06-08-2006, 12:50 PM
Hi. I've been sufferring for several years with multiple symptoms. I was tested nine years ago for lupus and it was negative and that was that. Now a bad auto accident has dregded up a multitude of symptums. It has been two years and I suffer every second struggling to keep focus and the pain is on some days unbearable. I have recently been retested since the neurologist said that ms and lupus are very similar. I spent three days in the hospitol with partial paralysis on my left side. unfortunetly they cannot see what is causing the symptoms only what it is doing to my body..
I have been very confused and have been told it is a rare but severe type of migraine. The doc put me on blood thinners and a heart regulator and within weeks I brook out in the worst itchy rash of my life an then my joints got hard and almost to painful to move. I now have been on steroids for several weeks and now they test me for lupus. I don't care anymore what the diagnosis is .. Just give me one that they can treat. Frustrated is the best word to describe me..
I find out hopefully this week but as I feel like a medical anomally I do not hold a positive outlook on what they will find.

I know that I DON'T KNOW ANY OF YOU, But I found so much comfort the first moment that I looked at some of the discussions. I have done some research but have felt that everyone around me in my daily life looks at me like I am an alien. My joints swell and become so painful in just minutes that I feel redicullus. Ever since the last episode that landed me in the hospitol I feel drugged. The only thing working was the blood thinners and regulators and now I can't take those. I have had to put in my notice at my job which has sent me spirralling into a crazy depression, I just don't feel I am doing the job I should be. I am exhausted after just a few hours and my memmory is gone of all the important things I should know readily. I feel strongly that you all can relate to me in some way. I fear that if the blood work is negative that all the thousands of dollars have been for nothing.. I wish I could produce tears becuase I would cry.

I just lost my insurance do to my husband having to take a different job to help with the bills. He cannot stand the pain I am in and the fear that I am dying. I have fainted actually fainted while driving and then lay in my bed at home just feeling like the life was leaving me.. These past 2 years have been ****. Please tell me their is hope.

So far I have gathered that I should consult with a arthritic doctor. I see an orthepedic again on the 16th for an evaluation for further treatment, I hope he refers me. I also found that there is a lupus center in Washington.. Does anyone know if going their may help clear up the confusion? My brain has lesions and I have sufferred a minor stroke the problem is they cannot find the cause and I am onlly 33. I am scared, scared that I will not live to see my daughter graduate or my son master his skateboard. I used to be active and ride bikes, rock climb and the like and for years now the dizziness I suffer and the fear of hitting my head has kept my from doing those things. Now I am horribly anorexic looking and the shakes on top of it make me look as if I am addicted to crack. I am embarrassed to leave my house.

I could go on with all symptoms for pages. Just a couple more questions: Does lupus ever get better? Will I ever be able to do the things I used to? Can I just have my life back with medication..All advice wil be more than appreciated. I am desperate..
Thank you for your time

rriffee@yahoo.com
06-08-2006, 02:19 PM
Hi Tracker: I"m so sorry for the way you are feeling. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/sad.gif I hoe you get some answers soon. You need to get a referal to a rheumatologist. He would probably be able to help you get some answers. You have alot of the symptoms of lupus but only he would be able to tell you for sure. Please take care and don't give up hope. Stay in touch and let us know how you are. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif Mary Jane

halfpintfl
06-08-2006, 04:11 PM
style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/wavey.gif Hi Tracker,welcome to this site. First, none of us on this site
ar dr.s' , we all just share help and support when we can. Having said
that, Yes, lupus can go into remission. You don't see that on these
boards because most of the people are looking for an answer, and have
not been diagnosed. Also, yes, you can have a perfictally good life
with the proper coctail of meds. But, you need to be under the care
of a Rheumatologist, and getting a diagnosis takes a long time. But,
whatever you do, do not give up.


Be well and keep posting. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/cool.gif

Tracker
06-09-2006, 04:04 AM
Thank you for your replies,

I plan to get the results from my bloodwork next week. I appreciate all the advise and encouragement. The important thing to me is keeping the right direction because the symptoms are so many its easy to get confused. This board is a great source of direction for me... thank you all.
Tracker

jude mack
06-09-2006, 04:59 AM
Hi Tracker

Welcome, there is always hope no matter how bad things look, so never give up. I'm sorry
you are feeling so bad, hopefully you will recieve proper treatment soon. With all that you
are going through, no wonder you are feeling depressed.

It really does take time to get a diagnoisis, and as said a rheumatologist would be the best doctor
to see. Hopefully your blood tests will start you on the right track of a diagnosis. Take care and it's
nice to meet you.

Feel Better
Jude style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/hugbetter.gif

Nicky99
06-09-2006, 10:03 AM
Hi Tracker

I am so sorry you are going through all this. I kinda know how you feel as it seems we all do on this site.
I hope the docs can work it out for you soon.

Thinking of you

Nicky

Sleaps2much
06-09-2006, 10:31 AM
Hi Tracker,

Sorry you are having such a hard time of it. You say you've had a stroke, has anybody tested you for antiphospholipid antibody syndrome? It's a clotting disorder that many get along with or without lupus. Google it an see if that sounds like you. There is also some posts on it here. I hope you get some answers soon. I would explain it but my brain is fried today, sorry.

take care

Sleaps