My bad day just keeps getting worse

[Angel_Baby]

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That lil smiley says it all!!!

I am flaring right now. Everything hurts so bad. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/sad.gif Meds don't seem to be helping at all right now.

I just barely made it through the weekend with my job. Today I was made to vacuum the entire store. Our store is BIG and there also isn't any AC at the moment.
TO TOP EVERYTHING OFF.... new girl quit and I have to fill in for her. 6 days of work, no break in between. I feel like curling up in a ball and crying.

I have to take my Metho tonight and that is depressing in itself. Makes me sooo sick. Tomorrow is my only day off and I have to spend it sick because of it.

My Rheumy appt is not till the 28th so I have to suffer through it till then.

I can't do this anymore... wanna give up.

Don't know how I will make it through work... though I love my job... at the moment I just want to yell "I QUIT!!!!!" at the top of my lungs!

I'm at the end of my rope here... everything is getting to me.

sorry

Tabitha

[kaesara]

Hi Tabitha,
I am sorry that you are going thru such a difficult time. I cant imagine working with no AC and having to vacumn the entire store. You are doing the right thing by venting. BLESS YOUR HEART!!!!!!

Is there any way possible that you get by with working less hours( part time basis) . I realize that may not be feasible when the company has lost a employee. Be careful and remember to take care of yourself.

I remember before I went out on Leave of Absence that resulted in Short term disability, then Long term disability and now Social Security Disability that this was a very scary time for me. I felt that I couldnt possibly live if I didnt work. I was single at the time and my Son was dependent on me because he had been in an auto accident. Eventually I took the advice of my Doctors and went out on that Leave of absence. It was tough but things have worked out. I havent worked since July of 1997. Again I dont know if it is feasible for you to take some time off or not. It really sounds like you need some time off it nothing more than a few days to regroup and get some rest.

Are you seeing a new Rheumie on the date that you mentioned or is that how long you have to wait to see your established Doctor? Oh Tabitha I truly feel for you as I have been in that situation .

Do keep venting and keep us informed on how your are doing both physically and how you are coping.
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Sincerely,
Kaesara

[lisade]

Hi Tabitha, You are having a time right now. I agree with Kaesara it sounds like you need some time off for your health. Is there anyway your doc could move up your appointment and you could discuss these feelings with him?

I too loved my job immensely. I have been on extended medical leave since March and will be retiring with SSD. It is a hard decision to make, but one I had to make for myself. It will be difficult financially for my family, but I really at this point had no choice.

Thoughts and prayers are with you. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif

[Donna Marie]

Arr i am so sorry you're going through this, thanks for sharing with us and you know where we all are if you needs a chat.

(((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))

xxx take care

[bugsy]

http://i12.photobucket.com/albums/a210/bugsy04jo/oneofthosedays.jpg<span style="color:#CC66CC"><span style="font-size:11pt;line-height:100%">this says it all too </span></span>

[lesleyc]

hang in there! style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif
i don't have any advice other than that, but my thoughts are with you!

lesley

[Angel_Baby]

thanks for your replies of support and comfort style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/smile.gif

Jo I loved that turtle! so cute! It made me laugh when I saw it. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/wiggle.gif

So far I am making it through work... but barely. My body is saying NO and I am telling it YES. Big arguement we are having. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/tongue.gif

I am gonna discuss with my dr about my job. My body just won't let me keep at it. Have to call out all the time which I know my co-workers don't like.

(((hug4all)))

[zara]

Call your dr for sure then call in sick. Time for some R&R...


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[Angel_Baby]

Yay!!!! I made it through all of it!
But now I can't get out of bed due to my back going out... and my hubby is mad at me for not being able to clean up the house now. I need to be able to do everything for him it seems....

Ah well, no worries. I am gonna relax to my hearts content! Everybody it's time to be lazy!!!

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[Jen79]

style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif Tabitha you deserve to be lazy how much work you have been doing lately and I am sure your body needs a rest. Tell hubby to get off his behind and do some house work for you for a change. You can't do everything all at once. I am glad you are going to relax for awhile.

HUGS,
Jen

[helloos]

I think the hardest part is realizing that you have to listen to your body first. Not the mind. It is one of the biggest challenges for me. I was always on the go and handled everything.

As said above, you need to rest and need to let your work know that you CANNOT fill in for that person and maybe yes, cut your hours. Your health is definitely more important. I know we all need to pay the bills, but there has to be a half way point.

Please rest and hope you feel better.

[littllebit1965]

<div class='quotetop'>QUOTE(Angel_Baby @ Jun 11 2006, 07:43 PM) Quoted post</div><div class='quotemain'>
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That lil smiley says it all!!!

I am flaring right now. Everything hurts so bad. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/sad.gif Meds don't seem to be helping at all right now.

I just barely made it through the weekend with my job. Today I was made to vacuum the entire store. Our store is BIG and there also isn't any AC at the moment.
TO TOP EVERYTHING OFF.... new girl quit and I have to fill in for her. 6 days of work, no break in between. I feel like curling up in a ball and crying.

I have to take my Metho tonight and that is depressing in itself. Makes me sooo sick. Tomorrow is my only day off and I have to spend it sick because of it.

My Rheumy appt is not till the 28th so I have to suffer through it till then.

I can't do this anymore... wanna give up.

Don't know how I will make it through work... though I love my job... at the moment I just want to yell "I QUIT!!!!!" at the top of my lungs!

I'm at the end of my rope here... everything is getting to me.

sorry

Tabitha
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style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/jump.gif sorry that you feel so bad lately. if its any consolation you are not alone. i to am having a flare up and this one is real bad. i havent had on this bad in about a year or so . keep telling yourself that you will ok and my doc tells me its all in the way i think. keep tell yourself good thoughts. i know this must sound stupid as i did at first but being possitive is always the way to go. i hope that it helps you as it did me. karen