not well

[helloos]

Hello everyone.

It is not a good time for me now. Had both the parties, my son's graduation party/18 bday party on Sat. with 45 people at my house, then on Sunday the 60th bday for aunt with another 40 or so people at my house. Non stop.

Well, I knew it would happen and it has. I am with fever, I cannot even hold my head up, hardly walk, and in so much pain pain unbearable, and feel like dropping dead. So bad that I am a baby and crying. Last night, I was mental. I was saying things and being mad and upset at everything. It was like my mind snapped and I became this crazy person.

I wish right now I could drop on the floor and have them admit me.

I cannot take feeling like this.

[lin]

Oh Paula, don't feel ashamed that you cried, the bit about dropping dead, i don't really think you mean,
its just your way of leting it all out,

lots of us have been there hun,, my hubby wakled in our bedroom one night to see a recked bedroom, looking back, i don't know whay i did it........ so i know where your comming from, its horrible when you see no end to it, but it will, are you on the right medication?.....i know that can take time to get sorted to.

i'm wishing you well paula hugs Lin xxxxxxxxxxxxxx style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif

[Clare.T]

I am not surprised you feel ghastly. Just reading about it all makes me feel rather ill.

Accept how you feel now, let it all out with the understanding that you will feel better with complete rest. Consider getting a short term sedative but if you really have lost total control then view that as an urgent medical necessity not an option; do whatever relaxation and breathing exercises you have mastered and determine to learn whatever lessons you can from the experience.

Feel better soon - be kind to yourself - and how about giving up pushing to the limits of even a well woman's endurance ? What are you trying to prove ?

There are no prizes. It is not a defeat or failure, but an acknowledgment of realities however unwelcome.

Hugs

Clare

[Joandublin]

(((((Paula))))) style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/hugbetter.gif style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/hugbetter.gif

I am so sorry you are feeling like this. It sounds like you are on the point of exhaustion and have reached breaking point. Something is definitely not right. Can you see your doc or go to the ER?

You have had an awful lot happen to you in a short space of time Paula. You know what stress does to us. Our minds and bodies can only take so much. Maybe you need some time off work to rest and get well again. Please see someone. Dont let this go on. You sound like you are at the end of your tether style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/hugbetter.gif style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/hugbetter.gif style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/crying.gif

Let us know how you are tomorrow ok?

Luv n stuff
Joan style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/flowers.gif

[Donna Marie]

Goodness me

You need to rest up honey xxxx take care and don't be ashamed to cry i feel better sometimes when i feel real bad for having a good cry.

xxxxxxx

[tine]

Just want to add my best wishes - hope you feel better soon xxxx Would like to suggest that you take some 'me' time, after all the hard work running around after everyone else nobody can begrudge you that ....

Take care honey

Tine xx style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif

[specialk16]

Paula, I worried about you this weekend over doing it. Please don't be ashamed of crying, I hope you feel better soon. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/hugbetter.gif

[bugsy]

http://i12.photobucket.com/albums/a210/bugsy04jo/rabbithugs.jpg<span style="color:#CC66CC"><span style="font-size:12pt;line-height:100%">Hugs to you Paula - feel better soon</span></span>

[lesleyc]

i agree 100% with everyone. nothing to be ashamed of at all, in fact i can't believe you made it through that relatively sane!!!
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make it top priority to rest!!

hope you feel better soon!!

lesley

[softball893]

Hi Paula style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/smile.gif


I hope that you are getting some much needed rest! It does sound like that you have overdone it and needing some time for yourself! I wish you all of the best of luck!







Love,

Liz style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif

[flutterbye]

((((Paula)))) Time for you to take care of you now, I really hope that you feel better soon, it sounds like some serious rest is needed, and its no bad thing to let out how you feel, much worse to keep it all in. Take care of yourself.

[oohloo]

style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif Paula, lots of rest and tlc is needed.
Love to you and lots of ((((hugs)))).
Lou.xxx
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[lisade]

Hi Paula, My you had a busy weekend. You need some TLC and rest.

Gentle hugs style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif

[Ms.Louise]

I agree with everyone who has replied before me.
Don't be ashamed and REST-REST-REST !!!!
Not over doing has been my worst enemy for the past year
and the hardest lesson to learn.
I'm sure you don't want to miss out on these important
celebrations, but there's no reason why you need to carry the
full responsibility for such an event , knowing the results for you.
I'd employ some family and friends to help you with the prep and
clean up. Then send them a nice Thank you note.
Hopefully you will recover soon.

Sincerely,
Ms.Louise

[LilliesPad]

Hi Paula,

Sending cyber hugs (((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))) )))))))))))))) and take care of yourself wishes. Don't be ashamed to cry that's why God made tears!!
love,

[iris.phillips1]

style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/rotfl.gif hi paula
make sure you get lots of rest you take care and look after your self

lots of love genette xx style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/foryou.gif

[JackieOh]

paula - like others here have said, it's no wonder ur in this state. you've worked hard to get there style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/wink.gif

sending you a big hug and hope u feel back on form very soon!!!!!

x jackie.

[lazylegs]

Any healthy person would be a basket case after tackling the schedule you did. Just rest now and take care of yourself.

Hope you feel better soon,
Lazylegs

[jude mack]

Hi Paula

I had a feeling after reading your last post, that you would be under the weather... Like everyone says GET LOTS OF REST. You certainly deserve it, after such a hectic schedule. Take care of yourself and feel better soon. style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/hugbetter.gif

Hugs Jude

[sunflowergirl2]

style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/hugbetter.gif Sounds like you really overdid it! That's alot of work, having parties. It's OK to cry, give yourself permission to take a break. HUGS!!!!!!! Cathy

[helloos]

Hello everyone.

Thank you all for your kind words.

Yes, I over did it.
Yes, I paid for it.

Today is Wed. and I slept a great deal last night and still do not feel back to where I was. I am very tired and in a lot of pain. Each day hopefully will get better and better.

As for my statement of being mental, I was so overtired, so much in pain, that I was being a witch. It was all my mouth, just snappy and not making much sense, and some swearing too.

This Friday my father and his wife come to stay with us for two weeks. I wish they weren't coming.

I am still not myself but as said, I hope to be on my way.

Thank you for all of your understanding.