need help

[stonefeather]

Hi guys not doing so well , all out of sorts , can't tell if the dam meds are working or not , stomach is a mess , alot of personal issues , Mrs. says i'm to hard to handle . Don't no why no one can seem to under stand some of these things i have no control over . i get upset real easy , i am short fused , irratable , it just sucks . Have u ever felt like u just want it all to be over , no more pain or problems . This is a bitch at best . I get so down sometimes , i take all my meds and do what i have to to get by , but it seems it's never good enough and this lupus stuff is a bird of a different feather . My bones hurt , i ache allover ( probaly from the snow storm we r getting ), my stomach is a mess , and now i can't eat what i'm use to to top it off .
I n a real battle over my son's schooling with my x and now i must suffer thru medation , ( this person said i can;t wait till u die ) now i have to mediate with her .
life can be tough i know , but for sure some day it has to stop.
sorry to be venting .:(

[bugsy]

Hiya Stonefeather

First of all don't apologise for venting on this website, thats one of the reasons we are here so we can let off steam and not have anyone judge us for doing it.

You sound to be having a real tough time of it right now, you mentioned taking medication but you didnt say what you took so i am not sure if you are taking any anti depressants, if not i strongly advise you talk to your doctor and tell him/her how you are feeling, especially the part about you wanting it all to be over - i have been there too and i can sympathise with you 100% its not a nice place to be. I was feeling really negative and wondered why i carried on then i remembered my love ones, you have mentioned you have a son - you are lucky to have him, surely he is worth fighting this thing for. Don't let lupus win this battle - you are stronger than that i am sure.

I hope it as helped you to vent on here and get some things off your chest that you feel you can't say to anyone close to you.

Take care of yourself :hug: Jo :hug:

[peonyprincess]

Bugsy is correct, do not apologize for letting off steam. We have all been down the road of utter disgust more than once. You didn't say and I am not going to ask if you are on some form of antidepressant. IF you are, you may want to talk to your doc about uping the dose and if you are not on one, now might be the time to start. No one likes to admit that they need a pill just to enjoy the day, but sometimes it is just a necessary evil. Talk to your doc and see what he/she thinks. In the meantime, we are all hear to lean on.


Nancy

[Bullwinkle]

hang in there Wayne. Man is your plate ever full, what with "C" , Lupus, ex issues, accident, etc. etc.. Is there anyone you can talk personally to, say perhaps a counsellor, or whatever? We can listen and offer advice and antedotal stories of our experiences, but we are not always online when you need us the most.
You probably could use someone in your hometown to let it all out, then you could deal try to priortize the important issues and deal with them, then move on to others. Two things: i) your health should take precident over anything else. Devote the better part of your time on it. That's trying to eat right, take all your meds, and keep seeing your Drs. when things change, or you need to just explain how hard it is to cope with all what is going on. He may be able to recommend someone. And this is no time to try and be macho. I myself have seen two psychologists in my lifetime for various issues. All one had to to do was to explain what I was going thro' and tell me I wasn't going crazy. The other just helped me organize and deal with issuesThat were becoming too overwhelming, a little like what you are experiencing. ii) your doctor(s) are the only ones that you can trust to be on your side in your battles, use them to your advantage. Things always have a way of working themselves out. Just be strong inside buddy, and if you have to let a little emotion fly out, don't hold back. By god you deserve to vent and release your frustrations. Hey and it helps. All the best.

[iris.phillips1]

:hug: hay stonefeather,
(((((hugs to you)))))))) sorry your going through a pretty rough time at the mo, please dont say sorry for venting were all in the same position so we understand so vent anytime you like my friend.

i really think you are suffering from depression please go and see your docand tell them how you are feeling you know we are all here for you to:wink2:
i see you have a son if you feel like life cant go on then think about him you are very lucking to have him, i really hope it helped to let things off your chest feel free to do it again

hope to talk soon
love genette xx:grouphug2:

[helloos]

Hi Stonefeather.

Sorry to hear that things are getting to you and spinning out of control. I was there not to long ago.
Take some stressful situations and add your Lupus to is and what do you get? A very upset, confused person.

I am glad that you vented here and everyone gave good advice. I was wondering though about your mediation - can you change your mediator? I think you have grounds enough for a change.

Also if you haven't already,you may want to let your doctor khow about your stomache. Maybe the meds are causing this. There are some medications that may be able to help with your stomache and let you eat a little more. Also your levels of anxiety or uneasy feeling that you are having.

The only suggestion I have from my spiral situations is to let it out. Get your frustrations out here, there or whereevery you need to. Understand that your health is number one priority. If you need to rest, escape and do it. If you are so stressed, try to find something that can help relieve it. A book, a game on line (which I have been doing recently) breathing exercises or a warm bath. Anything that can help bring your stress levels down.

As people on here told me, it will die down and soon pass. It does. They were right. I knew it. And it did die down.

The day of the mediator will come. It will pass. Your child will go to school and finish. Please just take care of you.

Maybe you need to have a talk with your spouse and explain all these feelings. It could help.

Hope that things do get a little better for you this weekend and hang in there.

Better days are ahead.

[stonefeather]

Thanks u guys i really appreciate your come backs , some good advice too.
i am on anti depressant paxil have been for 3years , plaq, predizone shot , zoladex implant x 90 days , cozarr, flomax, norco, ultram,chemo, and i can't remember what else , oh ya my vitamins and supplements too .
just a real bad time , i must get my self better my othe son the Marine is coming home i n a few weeks before going over to the sand box .
i must say it is a miserable time , but i will over come it . thanks again .wf

[Douglas]

Thirty years ago I felt just as you describe, without the x part.
Things got better, then worse, then much better, then much worse, then better then worse, then ..... you get the picture.
Life is too important to lose the Lupus.
All the best in taking it 5 minutes at a time.
Douglas+