I hate medicine:-(

[shelly21]

yes, i know, hate is a strong word... nevertheless i will say it again - I HATE MEDICINE!!!
the pain has never been as bad as it is at the moment-costochondritis is terrible, legs arms, fingers (this typing is killing me) have had cortizone injection, took naproxen together with tramadol, then tried dihydrocodeine neither of which worked....
went back to rheumy, who gave me arcoxia 120mg, highest dose possible... it still didnt help-yesterday in the classroom, tears just streamed down my face, had to get out of room was so embarrassed... cried the rest of day, left school early, which is a big deal for me! rheumy's secretary said there is nothing he can do, so phoned the emergency GP, who prescribed me with a form of morphine to calm me down!!

PHarmacy only had one pill in stock, which i took last night, and the rest will be coming in nowish! problem is it completely inhibits any action what so ever, cant drive, cant think, cant anything! although it felt nice, i wont be able to cope with just sitting on a chair for a few days!! i suppose this wierd feeling is better then pain, but it makes you feel like an outsider, watching your own life! (does that make sense?!?!)

went for a massage today to see if that would help relax muscles, but no.... have put on weight from meds, feel really nauseous, cant walk, hurts me to eat, cant text(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) brain doesnt function, so cant work, eyes hurt, so cant read properly, etc the list is endless, and quite frankly my patience is not!!! i realise every experience in life is a learning curve, but really, what can i learn from this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ANYWAY, am sorry you just had to read a university dissertation on my life, i do appreciate it!!!!
hope you feel better than me,

Shelly

[acard]

:Posy: Shelly,
I am soooo very sorry that you are suffering from so much pain. You do need to take this med and live like a zombie until this flare settles. It is the lesser of the 2 evils.:hehe: In the meantime just try to rest and let your body get through this.
I am sending you some hugs:hug: and I will pray you will feel better soon.
Lots of Love,:love2:
Becca

[Douglas]

So sorry to hear you are in such a kerfluffle.
Maybe we should have a pool. Which is worse a) meds; b) pain; c) doctors; d) induced stupidity (meds or Lupus fog); e) other people; f) broken dreams; g) ?
Hope things improve somehow.
Douglas+

[peonyprincess]

Shelley,

Been there, done that. I think you need to go out in your backyard and just scream at the top of your lungs!! Then, once you have done that, go inside, lock the door, light some candles in the bathroom, pour in a bunch of bubbles into a bath, pour yourself some juice (cannot drink alcohol b/c of meds) and then sit it in and soak and try to relax. If that doesn't do it, you may need to repeat it a couple of times.


Best of luck
Nancy

[Clare.T]

Shelly

You wrote


but really, what can i learn from this


There are quite a few insights and understandings to be gleaned from this situation: for example, that life sucks sometimes, and sucks worse and more often for people with chronic diseases, and sucks the whole time for a lot of people especially those who have restricted access to doctors and who are denied adequate pain relief.

That some people have no choice and live in pain and loss of independence as the background facts of their life

That there are times when the body's needs can't be denied, not without serious risk to overall health. That stress increases inflammation that causes pain that causes more stress which increases blood pressure which imposes greater strain on the organs ..............

Rethink your approach to your illness: denial is not the best way of living well with it. Ask your doctor about further treatment options and explore ways of gaining inner strength and calm

Just a few of the realisations possible.

Feel better soon

Clare

[shelly21]

thank u guyz for your responses!

Clare, you are right, that is the optimum way of looking at life, and when i am not in pain, i do have a good outlook on life, it is just that when pain strikes it is so difficult to think positively about anything, especially not the thing that is causing the misery to begin with! by nature, im the person who cheers up people, makes teh most noise in the house etc, so when i get stricken with pain, i feel so useless and worthless!

and yes, the fog is so much better than pain!!!!!

feel good

Shelly
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[helloos]

HI Shelly.

I know exactly what you are saying. I find myself in that much pain at times and nothing works. You are right, you can't think positive during those times. The pain almost makes you crazy.

Relaxation can help and some warm baths and heating pads. Sometimes it is hard to relax and try to do things to make you relax when you are so uptight and in pain. But if you can remember to do it, it will work and lessen some of it.

I hope you feel better soon and the pain lifts a bit.

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