And there i was feeling proud...

[shelly21]

ok, i know that technically i dont have lupus, and therefore shouldn't be posting in "Living with lupus" but because my symptomsare similar, i decided i could get away with it!

as you may know, my sister, who has twin sons, is in hospital as the children have bacterial pneumonia. the hospital is five and half miles away from my house.

Due to religious reasons, we do not drive on a SAturday, and therefore it would mean her staying by herself all day with the children, in the middle of no where(her husband had ot be at home with the older children.) on SAturday morning i woke up feeling good and decided i was going to walk the 5.5 miles to her. i would wait until sunset, and then get a lift home.

It felt really good. to be honest, i think i was just out to prove to myself that i could do it. i walked really fast, and did it in good timing (1and half hours.) i wasn't really in pain when i arrived which was great.

THis morning i woke up, and my back is in agony. every step i take is pain, and every movement is a sharp stab in my lower back. It has really upset me. i was so excited that i was able to do a form of exercise, without giving up in the middle, or experiencing any pain, and now i am in a really bad mood as a result of realising that actually i cant do any real exercise any more. (remember i used to run marathons etc.)

i am normally ok with it all, but i feel really demoralised about it all:sad:

anyway, i have let it off my chest, and now i can go to bed...

thanks for reading this little essay, i do appreciate it,

good night

Shelly
x

[confused1]

(((((( Shelly ))))))))

You did a kind thing and felt so good and then your body let you down.... it's unjust, but a fact of life. No matter how much we try to live "like always", it is necessary to pace ourselves and be careful not to overdo. While the spirit may be willing, the body may extract a price for too much activity.

I hope you feel better soon, out of the aches and pain of a flare. And I hope your sister's little ones are soon well and out of the hospital.

And don't worry about posting here. You are welcome and are among friends. (I haven't been around for a while and I'm not sure what you do have .... do you have a dx yet?) I post here and my dx is Primary Sjogrens' Syndrome.

Take care of yourself and remember that you are still strong in your heart and spirit and that your body will be stronger and more pain free if you are careful and don't do too much.

hugs and prayers,
Sunny