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Not really sure why i'm posting on here. I'm just fed up and bored of myself not being quite right and very depressed. I suppose I wish I had some sort of definate dx so I could say to myself "I'm not rubbish, I just have Lupus!" or something like that. I've found tips on here quite useful. I've started making a list of the problems I have ready for when I see the rheumy on 15th. I just know he'll do all the blood tests again, they'll still look mainly ok and he'll say keep taking the plaquenil and discharge me to be reffed back by GP if I develop additional symptoms. I suppose I am wasting his time - but I am so sick of being tired, and achy and stiff. Fed up with sore throats and ulcers and weird vertigo overwhelming me for no reason at unpredictable moments.
Most of all though, I with the depression would go away. I've been on meds for so many years. I see a therapist and everytime i feel I've made progress and I'm getting better it comes back for no reason. Today I'm only half convinced there is any point in carrying on with meds etc or turning up to appointments. I only stick around for my daughter.
Anyway, thanks for reading my hideous self pitying whinge. I just wanted to be able to tell someone how it is.
Wendy
Most of all though, I with the depression would go away. I've been on meds for so many years. I see a therapist and everytime i feel I've made progress and I'm getting better it comes back for no reason. Today I'm only half convinced there is any point in carrying on with meds etc or turning up to appointments. I only stick around for my daughter.
Anyway, thanks for reading my hideous self pitying whinge. I just wanted to be able to tell someone how it is.
Wendy