:sad:hey, well ive ad lupus for 10 years now was one of the youngest in the uk 2 get it at that time and its been a **** of a long time since i been on here and so much has changed lol i think i was 16 last time i came on and now im 20!
well my lifes been a rollercoster ive taken my self off all tablets and was so much better the depression stoped i didnt have a rash i could moove freely and i was my self again he weight droped off and i was happy.......untill last christmas...... my hand have strted peeling and they are red and burning and bleeding and ive been in and out of hospital for treatmet and the doctors dont know what it is bu itsso painfull i carnt touch anything wen its bad and ive been so depressed lately and thinkin really nasty things to do to my self and ivecutmy self off from all of my friends :shrug: because i feel like they do understand anymore i feel like i get on there nerves wen i say im in pain n carnt go out or im too tired :sad:
i dont even know wh im writing on here again am only moaning to new people lol but i suppose it helped me last time when i nearly took my life and thts what im affraid of agin i think im falling into the old habbits of my youth!
i think my doctor has passed it tho and he just wants me to take this tablet n that but he dosent see that im much better without them my blood test are nearly normal and have been for 5 years now he only realised i asnt takeing my tablet wen i told him this year lol .
:umm:i just dont know wot to do anymore i carnt cope at work because of my hands and im getting in trouble for breaking down crying and saying things to people i shouldnt and would not normally say!!
anyway ive rambled on long enough lol so ill shut up :lol:
feel like im looseing my mind :wacko:
take care god bless
liss xxx
well my lifes been a rollercoster ive taken my self off all tablets and was so much better the depression stoped i didnt have a rash i could moove freely and i was my self again he weight droped off and i was happy.......untill last christmas...... my hand have strted peeling and they are red and burning and bleeding and ive been in and out of hospital for treatmet and the doctors dont know what it is bu itsso painfull i carnt touch anything wen its bad and ive been so depressed lately and thinkin really nasty things to do to my self and ivecutmy self off from all of my friends :shrug: because i feel like they do understand anymore i feel like i get on there nerves wen i say im in pain n carnt go out or im too tired :sad:
i dont even know wh im writing on here again am only moaning to new people lol but i suppose it helped me last time when i nearly took my life and thts what im affraid of agin i think im falling into the old habbits of my youth!
i think my doctor has passed it tho and he just wants me to take this tablet n that but he dosent see that im much better without them my blood test are nearly normal and have been for 5 years now he only realised i asnt takeing my tablet wen i told him this year lol .
:umm:i just dont know wot to do anymore i carnt cope at work because of my hands and im getting in trouble for breaking down crying and saying things to people i shouldnt and would not normally say!!
anyway ive rambled on long enough lol so ill shut up :lol:
feel like im looseing my mind :wacko:
take care god bless
liss xxx