Well I'm sorry to vent but I have to have someone to talk to. First of all I'm having a bad flare right now and to top it off my appt to my rheumie it next tues and we are expecting a bad ice storm. I've had a bad rash developing on my chest and shoulders it looks kinda pimply-like really red but has lighted up today and my butterfly rash was burning and red as well but is better today as well. Now I have what appears to be vasculitis on my lower legs and my right toe has been getting numb and feet have been hurting when I stand on them for any amout of time, I've also had attacks of raynauds on my feet were they get so cold I can stand on them any longer and the only solution is to get hot bath to relieve the pain of throbbing:sad:. Then the fatigue is another story I do good to go to work then come home and make sure all 3 kids have their homework done, baths, then I callapse for next day.
On top of all this my husband has been saying hurtful things to me like "Are you ever gonna get better" That's like asking someone with cancer are you ever gonna get better? Then the other day I said I just don't feel good then he said "When do ever feel good". He has no sympathy whatsover and I have no one to vent to but you guys. I don't tell my mom any of my health prob's because I don't want her to worry. The vasculitis rash is concerning to me I currently have asthma, positive APS, Varicose veins prob's. I almost wonder if I should go to the ER, but then again my husband is always complaining about the cost of that as well. Sorry to vent but I just need someone to talk to. I'm on antidepressants and it's hard for me to cry I want to, not sure if that makes any sense. :sad:
On top of all this my husband has been saying hurtful things to me like "Are you ever gonna get better" That's like asking someone with cancer are you ever gonna get better? Then the other day I said I just don't feel good then he said "When do ever feel good". He has no sympathy whatsover and I have no one to vent to but you guys. I don't tell my mom any of my health prob's because I don't want her to worry. The vasculitis rash is concerning to me I currently have asthma, positive APS, Varicose veins prob's. I almost wonder if I should go to the ER, but then again my husband is always complaining about the cost of that as well. Sorry to vent but I just need someone to talk to. I'm on antidepressants and it's hard for me to cry I want to, not sure if that makes any sense. :sad: