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Hi all,
I am feeling a little down tonight. It seems like everything is just wrong.
First, it has been 4 weeks since my myomectomy/laparotomy and I still have this nerve pain and numbness on my left side that concerns me. I have this sort of rubberband tight feeling when I walk. I haven't started driving yet, I might give it a shot tomorrow. I still am pretty swollen and can't fit into my clothes other than the pjs I bought a size too big before surgery. The doc says that the numbness and swelling could last a few months or longer and that each person is different. I have 2 weeks left off work.
Second, my bf hasn't really been around. He didn't come see me at the hospital the day of surgery. In the last 4 weeks he has only come to see me 11 times for a max of an hour, mostly less than an hour. We hardly talk on the phone, he is always sleeping, or so he says. I have been staying at my parents for recovery and have had a lot of time to think. Things have been going down hill with him since around Christmas. I just don't know what to think anymore and I am sort of thinking about ending things. If he acts like this, how will he act with something a lot more serious?
Third, my apartment sent me a lease renewal notice and they raised my rent over $100 a month. I can't afford that, so I will need to move in June. I don't know where I will move to. My parents think I should move back home and pay off my credit cards and then save to buy a place. I know that is the logical thing to do, but I just feel like I need to be on my own and I want to buy my own place. My dad says that with how the market is the prices will be dropping even more and I don't want to buy something that may turn out to be overpriced in 2 years and lose money on it.
Not to mention I got a haircut that I don't like tonight, so that is just adding to my blah mood.
My mom is telling me tonight that the doctor said that stress is not good for me right now. I told her that I can't live in a bubble and I can't not have stress with all that is going on. It's not like I can stop time so that stress doesn't happen.
I am not happy with how I look since surgery, I am not happy with my bf, I have so much to do to get ready to move and I need to decide where I am moving to, my recovery is slower than I had anticipated, and I am still in pain. I know, this too shall pass.
Thanks for listening.
Take care,
Lisa
I am feeling a little down tonight. It seems like everything is just wrong.
First, it has been 4 weeks since my myomectomy/laparotomy and I still have this nerve pain and numbness on my left side that concerns me. I have this sort of rubberband tight feeling when I walk. I haven't started driving yet, I might give it a shot tomorrow. I still am pretty swollen and can't fit into my clothes other than the pjs I bought a size too big before surgery. The doc says that the numbness and swelling could last a few months or longer and that each person is different. I have 2 weeks left off work.
Second, my bf hasn't really been around. He didn't come see me at the hospital the day of surgery. In the last 4 weeks he has only come to see me 11 times for a max of an hour, mostly less than an hour. We hardly talk on the phone, he is always sleeping, or so he says. I have been staying at my parents for recovery and have had a lot of time to think. Things have been going down hill with him since around Christmas. I just don't know what to think anymore and I am sort of thinking about ending things. If he acts like this, how will he act with something a lot more serious?
Third, my apartment sent me a lease renewal notice and they raised my rent over $100 a month. I can't afford that, so I will need to move in June. I don't know where I will move to. My parents think I should move back home and pay off my credit cards and then save to buy a place. I know that is the logical thing to do, but I just feel like I need to be on my own and I want to buy my own place. My dad says that with how the market is the prices will be dropping even more and I don't want to buy something that may turn out to be overpriced in 2 years and lose money on it.
Not to mention I got a haircut that I don't like tonight, so that is just adding to my blah mood.
My mom is telling me tonight that the doctor said that stress is not good for me right now. I told her that I can't live in a bubble and I can't not have stress with all that is going on. It's not like I can stop time so that stress doesn't happen.
I am not happy with how I look since surgery, I am not happy with my bf, I have so much to do to get ready to move and I need to decide where I am moving to, my recovery is slower than I had anticipated, and I am still in pain. I know, this too shall pass.
Thanks for listening.
Take care,
Lisa