:sadwalk: Ever since I gave Keegan back, which I still think was the right thing to do despite my still missing him very much:cry2: , people have stopped calling me. I have one friend Carolyn who still continues to call, she has been faithful for about seven years being my friend through ups and severe downs:worried: .
I am glad I do have her, but I miss all those people who were supposed to be my friends.
I am more hurt than angry, really, just so alone most of the time. I did go out with my Mom and grandma yesterday and also saw my aunt and the girls to give them their easter gifts:bunny: I have been trying to research other, less work and attention needed, pets. The other options here where I live are a gerbil,a rabbit (which I know what goes in their mouth about five times as much comes out the other end), a hamster, fish-I already had them and don't want the tank to care for, a small bird or pair of small birds, a guinea pig, or a cat. I am also thinking of cost as well as cuddle time, or interesting to watch. But I guess I am most disappointed in the friends who have disappeared. Most of my "social" life consisted of numerous doctor appointments, therapy appointments, and picking up medicine from the pharmacy--definately not very exciting.
But I have been doing some of the things that formally interested me, like stamp collecting, and gem and rock collecting (new), and photography ( a long time interest). There is a chance that I may be getting some money that was unexpected and I would like to get a digital camera and start taking art type photos or nature photos and of course tons of the girls.
There is a stamp club at our library and an active fine arts group in my town so when I do feel like it I can get out and go to those. I am trying to think of and do things that I have wanted to do or have done in the past that interested me in the hopes of meeting new people8) . Wish me luck, please that I can reach out to others and be supportive to the new people I meet. You all have been a wonderful support and lifesavors really so thank you for your continued support.:grhug: :love2: :flowery: Karly