Hi everyone,
thanks sooooooooooo much for all the kind thoughts....
i came to realise what that guilty feeling was...i just didn't want to admit that i was relieved....no more 24.7 worries phoning twicw a day..sicj with worry if she didn't answere the phone ect. and knowing how depressed she was n..ect. ect.
i asked my mum just when she had died to pse give me some reasurence or sign that she o.k. think what u want but i have had it...and my girlfriend was there too to witness it...i don't care if anyone says i'm reading into something that was just coincidence(splg) its done me the world of good...
funeral is next friday...lots of people are coming too...so that makes me pleased for her...she will dead 'chuffed' at all the attention.
all have lovely weekend from a very relaxed and calm person...
love marika

thanks sooooooooooo much for all the kind thoughts....
i came to realise what that guilty feeling was...i just didn't want to admit that i was relieved....no more 24.7 worries phoning twicw a day..sicj with worry if she didn't answere the phone ect. and knowing how depressed she was n..ect. ect.
i asked my mum just when she had died to pse give me some reasurence or sign that she o.k. think what u want but i have had it...and my girlfriend was there too to witness it...i don't care if anyone says i'm reading into something that was just coincidence(splg) its done me the world of good...
funeral is next friday...lots of people are coming too...so that makes me pleased for her...she will dead 'chuffed' at all the attention.
all have lovely weekend from a very relaxed and calm person...
love marika