feeling down

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helloos

Discussion Starter · Nov 5, 2008

Hi everyone.

I popped in to do some reading and catch up with my friends here and got to reply to some posts ! I miss doing that and glad I stopped in.

Things are not so well for me at the moment, personally, mentally or physically :worried:

Personally, my son returned home after 3 months of treatment and was home for 1 month and well, now has taken a turn for the worst again and has gone missing since Friday.

Mentally, my heart is broken and I fear that something aweful has happened to him. Just a feeling in the pit of my stomach.

Physically, all my symptoms have gotton really worse due to the stress of it all. They were not that good to begin with and well this just makes things much worse.

I have an appointment with the rhemo next month and may need to call sooner. I have not dropped the dose of Plaquenil. So I am still on that and the Immuran. I am stubborn and like to "ride" things out.

My eyes have been swollen in the morning and then subside. My hands are swollen and the knuckle joints are swollen and hurt. My knees are ugly

. The pain in my body seems bone deep. Don't know if anyone has felt that before, but it seems like it goes way down in the bone. Mornings are very tough.

Sorry for the complaints! Besides all that, I try to keep positive, but the little demon on my shoulder tries to put negative things into my brain

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I hope all is well with all of you. Hope to be back on to read some more later on.

Theres a saying " what doesn't destroy us, makes us stronger" who in the world said that?

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lin

· #2 · Nov 5, 2008

Aw bless you have got lots going on, i feel for you, and thinking of you,#
(((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) you try to keep strong now you hear, i know its easy for me to say, but i worry for you
i hope your son comes back soon get to the dr's sooner like tyou said, dont put things off lovey.

thinking of you Lin xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx:there::grouphug2:

Lily

· #3 · Nov 6, 2008

Hi Paula,

Theres a saying " what doesn't destroy us, makes us stronger" who in the world said that

Some idiot who has a lot to answer for :hehe: If I find out who it was you will have to stand in line because I want first shot :rotfl:

Sorry things are not so good for you right now, I hope they improve soon :hug:

love
Lily

Joandublin

· #4 · Nov 6, 2008

(((((Paula)))))

Im very sorry to hear about your son and the impact its having on your health :hugbetter: I dont know what else to say. Words seem inadequate at times of such pain and heartache.

Like others here I just pray for a good outcome for him and that the toll on your family doesnt bring you all to breaking point :worried:

I hope you get some news of him soon.

Much love to you and yours
Joan:rose:

lin

· #5 · Nov 6, 2008

LOL @ Lily xx

Katharine

· #6 · Nov 6, 2008

((((((((((hugs))))))))) I'm so sorry to hear all that you are still going through. It must be extremely stressful and no wonder it is having an effect on your health.

Don't leave it too long this time if you need to see the rheumy earlier. I wish we could do more to help but plenty of cyber hugs on their way.

:grouphug2:

Katharine

macfamily53

· #7 · Nov 6, 2008

Hi Paula

I am so very sorry for all your stress(((((hugs)))))and pain from it also.I am right there with you to lily :lol:can i have second punch:rotfl:.One thing we all need no matter what is going on is a sense of humor for sure,but i do know that sometimes it is hard to find anything funny in life.I just hope that your son does return and real soon((((hugs))))).Please keep us informed on the return of your son and how you are doing also.

Tammy

Douglas

· #8 · Nov 6, 2008

Theres a saying " what doesn't destroy us, makes us stronger" who in the world said that?

The idiot was the controversial German philosopher Friedrich Niezsche.

Hope you are doing better on all fronts.

Douglas+

Douglas

· #9 · Nov 6, 2008

Quoted by Conan the Barbarian.

(I should have added that to the previous post. Blam the Lupus!

lin

· #10 · Nov 7, 2008

Paula how thing lovey??? was just thinking about you

Lin xxx

flutterbye

· #11 · Nov 7, 2008

(((Hugs)))

I am sorry that things are so tough for you right now, it must be incredibly hard with your son, I can't even begin to imagine.

Please do take the best care of yourself you can xx

helloos

Discussion Starter · #12 · Nov 7, 2008

thank you all for caring so much and your good wishes

I found my son thank goodness. Maybe I need to go into investigative work and quit my job :hehe:

He is safe now but obviously not ok. But at least I know he is safe.

Goodness, my body is so stiff right now and in full blown pain.

I am going to go and lay down but wanted to let you know and thank you for your kind words.

P.S. you made me laugh about that saying.

here's another one "what doesn't break us, makes us" go figure

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greenhaggis

· #13 · Nov 7, 2008

Paula,

So glad your son is safe!

Go on and have that well deserved rest and let us know how you are after!

Lots of hugs and love!

Lesley

acard

· #14 · Nov 7, 2008

Paula,
I am so sorry for all that you have gone through!!! You are strong and have shown that numerous times just since I have known you!

I hope you do start to feel better;like NOW:hehe:

Hugs,
Becca

julsie

· #15 · Nov 7, 2008

Paula,don't know what to say so just send you a :hug:
Julsie

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