Hi Naz
It sounds to me like you are in a very heightened state of panic and anxiety about your diagnosis. I really cant answer as to why you want to push yourself so hard. Perhaps its in your nature or there are other things driving you?
The only thing I can say from experience is that if you continue to push yourself beyond your body's ability you will absolutely crash at some point and you could end up very ill.
The trick with this disease is to pace yourself. When I am totally exhausted and need to take a day off I have learned to do nothing else but lie down on those days. These are the days when I feel like I could sleep forever. Believe me, these time out days do help to recharge the batteries but the truth for me is that it only lasts a short time. I have to constantly charge and recharge my batteries if I am to have any chance of functioning. If I have a particularly hectic couple of days I will crash badly if I dont stop and rest. On average I have learned that I need at least one (sometimes two) of those complete rest days each week. These are days when I do as little as possible - just the bare essentials to keep the house ticking over.
Please try and listen to what your body is telling you. It takes a while to get the hang of it.
Take care
Joan:rose:
It sounds to me like you are in a very heightened state of panic and anxiety about your diagnosis. I really cant answer as to why you want to push yourself so hard. Perhaps its in your nature or there are other things driving you?
The only thing I can say from experience is that if you continue to push yourself beyond your body's ability you will absolutely crash at some point and you could end up very ill.
The trick with this disease is to pace yourself. When I am totally exhausted and need to take a day off I have learned to do nothing else but lie down on those days. These are the days when I feel like I could sleep forever. Believe me, these time out days do help to recharge the batteries but the truth for me is that it only lasts a short time. I have to constantly charge and recharge my batteries if I am to have any chance of functioning. If I have a particularly hectic couple of days I will crash badly if I dont stop and rest. On average I have learned that I need at least one (sometimes two) of those complete rest days each week. These are days when I do as little as possible - just the bare essentials to keep the house ticking over.
Please try and listen to what your body is telling you. It takes a while to get the hang of it.
Take care
Joan:rose: