Has my life really got to change?

Hi all,

The title says it all....i am off sick from work (have been for the last 2 1/2 months). I had an appointment with my works occupational health docotr and he says if im no better when i see him next month (27th January) he will have to do a report to my work telling them he considers i need to retire on the grounds of ill health.
I know work cant wait forever for me to get better but i am now on steroids (6th day today), although i woud say i haven't noticed any improvement.
Im so frustrated with sle......i so want to be well, i so want to be back at work, i don't want to have this illness force me to lose my job. I have been there for 22 years.
When the doctor told me they will sack me soon so best to go for ill health retirement i burst into tears. He said i maybe able to get another job in the future......but.........i dont want another job, i want my job, it is more to me than just a job, it is a huge part of my life, its all i have known my whole working life, i have lots of friends there and i will miss them all so much.

WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE THIS WAY???

Jane
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