[sushi]

hi all i havent been here for a while now. i havent had access to a computer. i have been more depressed than ever in my life. sometimes i just feel like.......im sorry that im always so negative but if its not one thing its another.

i had my catherisation done to check my heart and it came back fine no blockages. then about a 4 days i had a horrible episode, its really hard to explained what i experienced the sides of my eyes went blurred for about 5 minutes. my husband called 911 at tbe emergency room they did a ct scan of my head and it was normal. they also did blood tests and found that my anticougulation was at 27 stlightly elevated and put me on aggrenox.

i was addmitted for the weekend because they think i might of had a TIA. the hospital neurologist came to see me twice and told me he doesnt think that it had nothing to do with my brain.

they want me to go get an mri and an mra done for vasculitis. i have aslo went to see a pulmonologist because of my constant shortness of breath for the past couple of months now. she doesnt think it has anything to do with my lungs (just got a ctscan done of my lungs and am waiting for results) i dont know what to think of any of this anymore. i am at a stage of so much anxiety and depression i dont know what to do anymore i dont enjoy life anymore. i have an appt. with the pychotherapist on the 19th i hope they can help me. thank you sorry for such a long post

 

[LolaLola]

Sushi,
Dear oh Dear! You poor soul,
Common sense tells me that your brain has had some sort of kicking up whether anything shows or not. How you feel is a response to being ill, not because you are moaning or self absorbed.

I don't know what to say to help you. I am sure the shortness of breath is horrible, and the general lack of oxygen must be making you feel worse.

Hard for your Husband too. I know I have given mine various shocks medically over the years.

At the moment it is lovely where I live, although it is forecast to be very cold later. I didn't get to sleep until 5 am so my whole day is back to front.
I have friends coming for a meal tomorrow. (Not a proper one, just Indian delivered to the door and a shop bought pudding) but I will need to tidy up.
We don't entertain often enough, but they are nice people and we will enjoy it.

I am sure you are not really interested in my trivia and wish I had something exciting to tell you which would take your mind off things!
Thinking of you, wish I could say more.
x Lola

 

[sushi]

thankyou Lola for responding to my thread. is quite all right i always like to hear from you all and whats going on in your lives also.

i hope you recover from not getting enough sleep and have a good time at your dinner party tonight.

i just hope that i can get better from this anxiety and depression that ive been having for a long time now. thank you, lydia

 

[keebler]

(((Sushi)))

I wanted to give you some nice, giant hugs your way.:hug:

I am sorry that you are having to deal with all this.

Take care, I need to get to bed, I am exhausted at the moment:yawn:.
Love,
Lyn

 

[lazylegs]

Hi Sushi,

Glad to hear you had no blockages. That must have been a big relief for you.

I think the MRI/MRA will give the doctor a clearer picture. The CT scan isn't as refined as the MRI. Let us know how all your scans turn out.

Take care,
Lazylegs

 

[*~aurora~*]

I'm really sorry you're on a "rollercoaster" right now. I've been there and it's truly awful... but I don't have to tell you that! I really hope they're able to figure things out and that psychotherapy helps you feel better about it all.

 

[LolaLola]

Sushi,
I didn't know your name is Lydia. What a wonderful hospitable, intelligent Bible character she was. I love the name.

Dinner went great. Very informal, lots of laughs. I can't do the posh stuff any more, I just want to be with people I like without too much stress about what to feed them. I wish things were different and I could do the sort of meals I used to, but to be honest that is just vanity on my part and real friends don't want to see me worn out and stressed.

I was tired from clearing up before they came but it was worth it, and I don't tidy often enough so the incentive was good.

Hope you feel a little better today.
My Dove is cooing away and one of my cats has just bustled in.
x Lola

 

[Sage Hen]

Hi Sushi,

Sending hugs to you. I hope you can find out what is causing the episodes, your having with your vision and more.

I understand it must be very frightening for you. I hope your anxiety and depression ease very soon.

Love,
Sandy

 

[elle-co]

Hi Sushi,

I hope they get to the bottom of this soon.
Sending you lots of gentle healing hugs.


Elle x

 

[cad]

Hi Sushi,
I am really sorry for your scary episode, it must have got you really worried.

I am glad that you are out of hospital though anf good luck with all the tests.

Take Care

Good Luck

Cassie