thank you for your caring. Yes, you are right, it has been since starting the metho that I've been so sick. I asked them about it to see if that is what was making me sick & of course they said no, just a bad flare. I just started iv plasma treatments about an hour ago. they have to get my inr level to 1.5 so they can do the kidney biopsy tomorrow. I'm sure it could be worse, but just seems like it's always something and it gets so frustrating that I have been pretty much crying all day. they said that my esr is 109 still. but lots of drs don't understand that I could use the pain meds here either. one main one i have said just ask, if you need it you need it. the others say well we started prednisone 2 days ago, you shouldn't need it anymore. i don't know. if I'm here & they will give it to me & I need it I'm taking it!! does help me sleep too anyways!! I actually thought before I came in here that I felt like I was going to die, that's how bad things were, so I should be happy I'm here & getting better, but it is so hard to be in the hospital or sick for that matter, isn't it??!!!!! anyways, thanks, it helps to read friendly words from you guys!!