Well, this sucks.
My joints have flared up. called Rheumatologist. Blood has been tested for sed rate..etc.
My head hasn't stopped hurting since last Monday. Nothing works. Called Neurologist. Have apt. Tomorrow. Check.
I walk like a gimp in 80 degree weather.
My MRI of my brain does not show lesions or brain tumors, so that is good.
But, I have pain radiating from the the middle of my back up to my eye. I have pale optic nerves (more so in the right eye), and I am seeing a neuro-opthamologist in July, because that's when I can see the one in three of them that exist in Washington. And, I have no idea what the heck any of that means, other then I feel like crap, and it sounds less then good, but not horrible yet. I see spots every day, but I ignore them. My neurologist knows all of this. It's weird.
So, I am depressed. My rheumatologist is probably going to up my methotrexate, I expect, I am 10 mg, and I don't throw up or have side effects.
My neurologic symptoms occured before the methotrexate, so I don't think I am seeing spots because of the methotrexate.
Some days I want an antidepressant, but other days, I tell myself, when doctors fix me up a little better then my current state, I will not be so depressed. Going to work is a huge effort. Not crying daily also a huge effort. I feel guilty for dumping things on my spouse, but I am not functioning well. Juggling work, neurologist apt, rheumatologist check up, med refills, and then wondering why sometimes I can't walk, I want to crawl into a whole somewhere.
My joints have flared up. called Rheumatologist. Blood has been tested for sed rate..etc.
My head hasn't stopped hurting since last Monday. Nothing works. Called Neurologist. Have apt. Tomorrow. Check.
I walk like a gimp in 80 degree weather.
My MRI of my brain does not show lesions or brain tumors, so that is good.
But, I have pain radiating from the the middle of my back up to my eye. I have pale optic nerves (more so in the right eye), and I am seeing a neuro-opthamologist in July, because that's when I can see the one in three of them that exist in Washington. And, I have no idea what the heck any of that means, other then I feel like crap, and it sounds less then good, but not horrible yet. I see spots every day, but I ignore them. My neurologist knows all of this. It's weird.
So, I am depressed. My rheumatologist is probably going to up my methotrexate, I expect, I am 10 mg, and I don't throw up or have side effects.
My neurologic symptoms occured before the methotrexate, so I don't think I am seeing spots because of the methotrexate.
Some days I want an antidepressant, but other days, I tell myself, when doctors fix me up a little better then my current state, I will not be so depressed. Going to work is a huge effort. Not crying daily also a huge effort. I feel guilty for dumping things on my spouse, but I am not functioning well. Juggling work, neurologist apt, rheumatologist check up, med refills, and then wondering why sometimes I can't walk, I want to crawl into a whole somewhere.