light at the tunnel

hiya all
just some info about what ive gone tho and try to give some hope to us all who not dx

about 4yrs ago i feel ill with sypmtoms like stroke as my right side was affected so gp test me for a stroke and test was all normal. then gp done some reflex and muted somethink still dont now today wat he said lol but then he fax aletter to our local hospital for me to see a neuro.


got the apoinment to go see him - he done his reflex, asked me stuff then order bloods test and mri brain and spine. hubby asked him what it could be and he aid he dont think its a brain tumor
i waited about 4 mouths to get the results from mri yeah bad, hay but good, meaning it was not bad. when we see him again he said mri was normal as only has some spots but thats normal on the T2. then he said my folic acid was low and asked about what i eat i went abit mad saying why didnt he wright to my doc about the folic acide as i could have been put on then 4 mouths ago as i had myclones in my arm and tremors every day like was hard. the neuro even wanted me to email him each day what i was eating and he wanted me to go on ant depressents to build my appite up lol omg i dont need a tab to eat.
it was left with me on vitmins asprin and folic acid and emailing what i each eat dayly lol stuiped hay
not long after that, i had a myclones attack were could not talk walk nor site still and omg the faces i was pulling so my hubby took me to ER and the lady doc who saw me was shocked with how my body was acting and rushed me tho. all the nurse come in stucking needles in aw i hate needle i was getting abit scared as no one was saying anythink just putting needles in.
my hubby asked what was going on and they said they was going to keep me in as there was no neuro on at the weekend. my hubby asked me if i wanted to stay but i said no i wanted to go home and try and rest as the muscle was makeing me so tired and there was nothink the docs could do as no neuro was there. hubby sorted got that i dischared myself and the myclones lasted for 4 day and even to this day i wise i stayed so that the neuro had seen what went on

on the monday my hubby rang the neuro as i still couldnt talk with the contraction in my nect keet cutting my talking off about 4 weeks later i was sent to hospital for a week witch i had a LP and mri with dye wednesday and was meant to get results on friday but didnt so went home

finaly got my next appoiment to see neuro and he told me LP normal leasion on T2 but still normal but he thinks i have lupus so was sending me to st toms and he told me he was leaveing as well so i have a new neuro

finaly got appoiment to st toms under dr cruz but was not seeing him off we went the doc i see said i might have mild lupus he order bloods test and said come bk in six weeks we had to w8 9 weeks np as getting used to w8 heheh
9 weeks come and went to get results got told all test was normal and have i been tested for HIV? well no, but why would i ? safe relationship, kids and no blood tranfuion but anyway he dischaged me and i went got the HIV test done just so they cant throw that one at me

then i got a letter from the new neuro to go see him. he was really horrable total dimised all what had gone on with all the reflex test he hurt me rushed then and said nope your all normal and was tell me about this woman who has eplese attackes but the test are all normal saying thats all in her head. omg i went mad and asked him ok if you think i mad send me to get tested and he said he wanted to test me for stiffman sydrome but he dont think its that and he order eeg and emg and he said after that he would send me to get checked for mental if they come back normal

went home and tho if i going to be a nutter i need it sorted out now as i have a family well.
i rang around found a doc that would see me with out the other test so rang the neuro sec and got them to refer me to them

i got the appoment to see if i was a nutter walkine in nice lady and she told me its not in my head and i am total normal and she was dischanged me

i had the test done eeg emg and bloods for stiffman sydrome all was normal and i just didnt want to see that neuro again as ne was **** guy heheh

told him i wanted to stop seeing him and he was more than happy to dischage me as i had a good moan on how he was and he even then said about he tho they would not think i was a nutter. stuiped guy how the **** do they keep there jobs lol

anyway i stayed away from the docs as all the time i was under them they didnt help i just got on and hubby so great a year later

i thought i email a top doc who know about lupus really didnt think he email me back or email me saying well your ANA was low and you have been tested for it before so no point carrying on

BUT omg he didnt! he took note on everythink and didnt dismiss me. he order mt records, went over them and wrote me a letter telling wat he has done and saying with the test i have had done that i might have mild sjo syndrome and he would like my gp to referr me to him and its on the nhs, so not trying to get my money. i would have paid tho so now w8ing to get appoment from st tom with the doc who cares about us. its not just about getting dx its about feeling that they want to help even us hard cases

we had prolems just as musch as someone who that can see whats wrong with them
so with all of you going tho what i have and more, just take brakes time to time cos **** doctors dont help. stand up with wat you feel as you know your body better than they do and dont get stressed, as that will help then fob u off. be cool carm but fight every time you get kicked down take a break and when you ready, go back to find out what is wrong

sry its so long just hope it will help and goodluck to you all

BIG HUGZZZZZZZZZZZ
wendy