hello everyone (warning - long post)
First, I hope that you are all ok and I miss you all very much. My apologies that I haven't been able to come on here and catch up but I always keep all of you in my prayers.
I hope that one day soon I will return and be able to talk, respond to some posts and I miss it alot.
Things are not good rigtht now. Very severe personal problems with my son. So that I have been trying to keep my strength up for. Also some mental issues with one of my sisters who is leaving aweful screaming and yelling messages on my machine and quite disturbing. I think I will have to unplug my phone as I can't take it anymore. I just want my family to leave me alone right now.
But besides all of that, and I think a lot is due to the lack of sleep from such disturbances and stress on top of it all, I am not in good shape and may be going to the hospital.
I cannot bend my elbows. My eyes were swollen again this morning. The pain in both elbows are severe and stiff. My ankles are quite painful and my hands are somewhat swollen. I have deep bursitis in my hip which I am being told I have no treatment option right now for it. My fevers are spiking up and then down. I have this sharp stabbing pain in my chest wihich hurts when I breathe and think pleursiy is going to be the outcome of it. My body is stiff and hard to move and walk. My palpitations in my heart feels like a rap song. I couldn't sleep last night and went to take a sleeping pill and forgot I had no more. I don't take often so totally forgot that one. I couldn't remember if I took my morning pills or not, so decided don't take them because of overdose. So I am almost sure I missed all those doses.
My advice about the pill box, didn't take my own advice, and had no energy or strength to separate them, so I do this to myself.
I can't lay on my side because of the hip and pain in chest is on the same side, so laying on the opposite hurts the pleursy, that is why i think that is what it is.
I am going to really try to hold out and see if I can make it until Monday, but that brings me to missing work. Also, the hospital emergency room is not a place to be this time of the year. The flu is around and I expose myself to more problems by sitting there and waiting for hours under the florescent lights just turns me off from the idea. But the shape I am in, I might have to take that chance and go tomorrow.
Anyway, I am sorry for the rant but I am alone right now and needed to complain I guess. I can't call any of family right now because I set myself up for misery if I do. My husband is away working the day and my oldest son came in hugged and kissed me as he saw the shape I was in, but I don't like complaining to him ! So my apologies that I loaded this on you! But you are my second family and know you won't mind !
Again, I hope that you are all ok and I'll let you know should I go to the hospital.
First, I hope that you are all ok and I miss you all very much. My apologies that I haven't been able to come on here and catch up but I always keep all of you in my prayers.
I hope that one day soon I will return and be able to talk, respond to some posts and I miss it alot.
Things are not good rigtht now. Very severe personal problems with my son. So that I have been trying to keep my strength up for. Also some mental issues with one of my sisters who is leaving aweful screaming and yelling messages on my machine and quite disturbing. I think I will have to unplug my phone as I can't take it anymore. I just want my family to leave me alone right now.
But besides all of that, and I think a lot is due to the lack of sleep from such disturbances and stress on top of it all, I am not in good shape and may be going to the hospital.
I cannot bend my elbows. My eyes were swollen again this morning. The pain in both elbows are severe and stiff. My ankles are quite painful and my hands are somewhat swollen. I have deep bursitis in my hip which I am being told I have no treatment option right now for it. My fevers are spiking up and then down. I have this sharp stabbing pain in my chest wihich hurts when I breathe and think pleursiy is going to be the outcome of it. My body is stiff and hard to move and walk. My palpitations in my heart feels like a rap song. I couldn't sleep last night and went to take a sleeping pill and forgot I had no more. I don't take often so totally forgot that one. I couldn't remember if I took my morning pills or not, so decided don't take them because of overdose. So I am almost sure I missed all those doses.
My advice about the pill box, didn't take my own advice, and had no energy or strength to separate them, so I do this to myself.
I can't lay on my side because of the hip and pain in chest is on the same side, so laying on the opposite hurts the pleursy, that is why i think that is what it is.
I am going to really try to hold out and see if I can make it until Monday, but that brings me to missing work. Also, the hospital emergency room is not a place to be this time of the year. The flu is around and I expose myself to more problems by sitting there and waiting for hours under the florescent lights just turns me off from the idea. But the shape I am in, I might have to take that chance and go tomorrow.
Anyway, I am sorry for the rant but I am alone right now and needed to complain I guess. I can't call any of family right now because I set myself up for misery if I do. My husband is away working the day and my oldest son came in hugged and kissed me as he saw the shape I was in, but I don't like complaining to him ! So my apologies that I loaded this on you! But you are my second family and know you won't mind !
Again, I hope that you are all ok and I'll let you know should I go to the hospital.
