Jen, many hugs for you, you are doing great
I had a very dear friend that had to go through something that she was having problems with. I suggested that she place an item in her pocket that would remind her of here. and everytime things became diffucult at her appointment , that she would reach into her pocket and hold it, the item represented everyone here. so we were all there for her holding her hand
this worked great for her. knowing we were all there holding her hand
it doesnt work for everyone and some people think it is silly, but hey if it works why not
take care my friend
I hope all comes together for you
goats