Hello everyone, I just got home yesterday from the hospital and I'm scared. I never want to go though something like this again. I wrote before about my mom having Alzheimers. She was staying at my house, I had come home from work to go to church with her and the kids. I think I started to lose it then. That night my two sisters had come over because they were worried about me. I was saying things like my grandparents were going to help me with my mom and they are dead, a lot of things that I was saying were scaring my kids and my family. That night I wouldn't let Shawn my husband go to sleep or myself and I had been with out sleep for a couple of days. I was scared that Shawn's heart would stop I was scared I would die if I went to sleep. Monday morning Shawn and My mom took me to the doctors. I don't remember to much about it. I wouldn't let them test me. Now this is coming from a shy person. I was acting crazy. Shawn Had to take me to the emergency room. I was screaming and I thought I was dieing It was so real to me. It took Shawn and hes a big man and other nurses to hold me down. They gave me a shot of something and I slept. I stayed in the hospital for 3 days on the phyc word I don't know if thats what you call it or not.
The doctors say it was a melt down, they are saying that between no sleep and the lupus and the prednisone and the stress of trying to figure out what we need to do for mom I just lost it. Can the lupus do something like this to you? I'm scared, I scared my family so bad. I never want to do something like this agian. I am weening down on the prednisone now, I am taking 1 pill a day
I'm still having a hard time remembering thing very good. Mom is staying over at my one sisters house. They came over here yesterday when I got out of the hospital, they are all worried about me. I'm scared that if I start to worry to much about what we are going to do with mom, the same thing might happen agian. I don't know what to do? I know that I am a big confort to my mom. Yesterday I took her for a 4 wheeler ride and it was nice to see her haveing fun. I need to get set up with this thrapast, I no he cant see me untel next week. Could the lupus really do this to me? It was so real so real I really thought I was dieing. I was screaming at the hospital I wouldn't let shawn go I bit shawn. This is so not like me, there is no way on earth I would act like that. Why Why? Has anyone had something like this happen to them before? I'm scared I don't know what I can handle or what I shouldn't try to handle. Well I will stop rattling on my neck is starting to hurt.
Love Susie
The doctors say it was a melt down, they are saying that between no sleep and the lupus and the prednisone and the stress of trying to figure out what we need to do for mom I just lost it. Can the lupus do something like this to you? I'm scared, I scared my family so bad. I never want to do something like this agian. I am weening down on the prednisone now, I am taking 1 pill a day
I'm still having a hard time remembering thing very good. Mom is staying over at my one sisters house. They came over here yesterday when I got out of the hospital, they are all worried about me. I'm scared that if I start to worry to much about what we are going to do with mom, the same thing might happen agian. I don't know what to do? I know that I am a big confort to my mom. Yesterday I took her for a 4 wheeler ride and it was nice to see her haveing fun. I need to get set up with this thrapast, I no he cant see me untel next week. Could the lupus really do this to me? It was so real so real I really thought I was dieing. I was screaming at the hospital I wouldn't let shawn go I bit shawn. This is so not like me, there is no way on earth I would act like that. Why Why? Has anyone had something like this happen to them before? I'm scared I don't know what I can handle or what I shouldn't try to handle. Well I will stop rattling on my neck is starting to hurt.
Love Susie