pill count
Hi Amy,
It sounds like you're a fellow teacher in the Midwest. Me too. Nice to meet you. I've had SLE since.. mmm... 1991? Your post reminded me of one morning I was laying out the pills to take. I had set all the bottles on the counter and picked out the required number to take (just for the morning dose). In the low lamp light and their images reflected in the mirror behind, I just sagged to the floor feeling disgusted about the numbers. Then... I went to get my camera and took a photo... then, I poured the disgust out into a poem and when I was finished, determined to do everything I could to start eliminating some of them.
If I couldn't eliminate them, okay. But if there was anything I could change (diet, exercise, sleep pattern, over-working) I was determined to do it.
I'd like to say I'm 100% in control of my health today but that's not accurate. I'd like to say I'm in great physical health but that went by the way side from the depression, the exaustion, the loss of balance, yadda yadda. But, I don't face the pills in the same way now. I manage my pills, I don't feel like they're managing me.
Remember, every day YOU decide what to do for your body. YOU decide if you want the pills to ease the pain, to regulate the systems, etc. You are in control of that. Make wise decisions. Those around you gain strength and courage by watching your personal health struggle. And you can endure. And you can again find hope, laughter, and peace.
~chel
Hi Amy,
It sounds like you're a fellow teacher in the Midwest. Me too. Nice to meet you. I've had SLE since.. mmm... 1991? Your post reminded me of one morning I was laying out the pills to take. I had set all the bottles on the counter and picked out the required number to take (just for the morning dose). In the low lamp light and their images reflected in the mirror behind, I just sagged to the floor feeling disgusted about the numbers. Then... I went to get my camera and took a photo... then, I poured the disgust out into a poem and when I was finished, determined to do everything I could to start eliminating some of them.
If I couldn't eliminate them, okay. But if there was anything I could change (diet, exercise, sleep pattern, over-working) I was determined to do it.
I'd like to say I'm 100% in control of my health today but that's not accurate. I'd like to say I'm in great physical health but that went by the way side from the depression, the exaustion, the loss of balance, yadda yadda. But, I don't face the pills in the same way now. I manage my pills, I don't feel like they're managing me.
Remember, every day YOU decide what to do for your body. YOU decide if you want the pills to ease the pain, to regulate the systems, etc. You are in control of that. Make wise decisions. Those around you gain strength and courage by watching your personal health struggle. And you can endure. And you can again find hope, laughter, and peace.
~chel