I got back from my week long class late on Saturday, which means I survived. :lol:
For a week I went non-stop, ate on the run without considering what I was putting in my mouth (tons of chocolate with caramel inside), didn't rest at all during the day, worked in a broiling hot room all day long.
By the end of the week I was a wreck, snapping at people and the like. Pain levels were very, very high. I was running 100+F fever all day. My feet and legs were swollen like sausages (it's slowly going down), my lower back and abdomen hurt horribly when I peed...... it was very, very hard. But I did it.
As we were leaving, one of the women who knows I have lupus passed me by and said "now see, you didn't have a single problem all week! I don't know why you were worried about your health. And I don't know why you don't work anymore....."
Yes, she walked away alive. But I've been snappy and short with my family since I got back. Trying to detox.
I will say this: I ended up staying at a place that had water from Soap Lake piped into the bath for soaking. It smelled like rotten eggs! Oh my. A short soak deflated swollen joints and feet. Took the pain out of my back. Soothed my jangling nerves. And apparently killed a toenail fungus.
Wish I had some to soak in at home.
Well, that's the whole story. I ended up bursting into tears at the end when a new friend grabbed me and hugged hard, pulling my face down against hers. Pain was just overwhelming and I couldn't keep the tears from flowing. I was humiliated.
So I'm home. And now I head to Arizona on Sept. 4. My mom starts chemo next Tuesday. Depending on how she responds she will either pull through and get another five good years or more, or she will be gone in a few months. I'm going now while we can do things.
Sunny
For a week I went non-stop, ate on the run without considering what I was putting in my mouth (tons of chocolate with caramel inside), didn't rest at all during the day, worked in a broiling hot room all day long.
By the end of the week I was a wreck, snapping at people and the like. Pain levels were very, very high. I was running 100+F fever all day. My feet and legs were swollen like sausages (it's slowly going down), my lower back and abdomen hurt horribly when I peed...... it was very, very hard. But I did it.
As we were leaving, one of the women who knows I have lupus passed me by and said "now see, you didn't have a single problem all week! I don't know why you were worried about your health. And I don't know why you don't work anymore....."
Yes, she walked away alive. But I've been snappy and short with my family since I got back. Trying to detox.
I will say this: I ended up staying at a place that had water from Soap Lake piped into the bath for soaking. It smelled like rotten eggs! Oh my. A short soak deflated swollen joints and feet. Took the pain out of my back. Soothed my jangling nerves. And apparently killed a toenail fungus.
Wish I had some to soak in at home.
Well, that's the whole story. I ended up bursting into tears at the end when a new friend grabbed me and hugged hard, pulling my face down against hers. Pain was just overwhelming and I couldn't keep the tears from flowing. I was humiliated.
So I'm home. And now I head to Arizona on Sept. 4. My mom starts chemo next Tuesday. Depending on how she responds she will either pull through and get another five good years or more, or she will be gone in a few months. I'm going now while we can do things.
Sunny