Hi everyone,
Today is a rough day, very tired (even after sleeping for 10 hours), very sore (even with the pain pills), and hands and feet are so swollen today. There has to be a better way to handle all this than the way I have been. I have to get all this under control in the next few weeks, because I have the 40 hours coming up to work for at least 4 weeks. I want so bad to be able to do this. To prove to myself that I can still if I have to. I do everything I can do stop the fatigue yet it still is there. I take it easy on the days I don't work and still the pain is there. Does this mean that it is not managed like I thought it was? Is there anyway to get this managed? It has come to a point that I just don't want to do this any more. My body is in pain all the time and the more I work the worse it feels. My mind and heart say keep working that I can do it, but the body feels like it just wants to stop it all. How do get them all to be in the same place at the same time and feeling the same way? Well that will be the big problem I have today. Sorry if I am not myself today cheery and happy.
Today is a rough day, very tired (even after sleeping for 10 hours), very sore (even with the pain pills), and hands and feet are so swollen today. There has to be a better way to handle all this than the way I have been. I have to get all this under control in the next few weeks, because I have the 40 hours coming up to work for at least 4 weeks. I want so bad to be able to do this. To prove to myself that I can still if I have to. I do everything I can do stop the fatigue yet it still is there. I take it easy on the days I don't work and still the pain is there. Does this mean that it is not managed like I thought it was? Is there anyway to get this managed? It has come to a point that I just don't want to do this any more. My body is in pain all the time and the more I work the worse it feels. My mind and heart say keep working that I can do it, but the body feels like it just wants to stop it all. How do get them all to be in the same place at the same time and feeling the same way? Well that will be the big problem I have today. Sorry if I am not myself today cheery and happy.