I feel so stupid. I've been having more memory problems than usual lately and so far have been pretty successful at hiding it from everyone except my husband. But today I had to call some neighbors to confirm a dinner engagement along with two other couples. I had to leave a message and started to mention the names of the other couples (who I know very well) and couldnt' come up with their names. So when these people get home, they're going to get a message on their machine which sounds very odd while I struggled to find the names in my mind. (I never did until after I had hung up). What must these people think of me? I know I sounded like a complete idiot. They know I have lupus/Sjogren's but they don't know it can affect the brain. I have CNS involvement and when this "grasping for words" problem happened before, the rheumy said it's the disease process. I feel pretty well overall with the meds I'm on, but this stuff really upsets and scares me.
In addition, I'm more emotional lately. Right now I'm in tears thinking about how stupid I must sound on that message, but I've just been more weepy in general. I'm not prone to depression and I usually snap out of these dark spells quickly, but this emotional symptom is something new and scary.
Well, enough of that. I have to pull myself together before my husband gets home. He worries enough as it is. Thanks for listening.
In addition, I'm more emotional lately. Right now I'm in tears thinking about how stupid I must sound on that message, but I've just been more weepy in general. I'm not prone to depression and I usually snap out of these dark spells quickly, but this emotional symptom is something new and scary.
Well, enough of that. I have to pull myself together before my husband gets home. He worries enough as it is. Thanks for listening.