Hi
I am feeling sad as today I had to tell my course tutor I can no longer carry on with my course. My doc was furious I had even tried to go to college as he says I know I am not fit for work. I hadnt told him but my hubby phoned him to tell him why I was so ill. Then followed more talk of me not accepting how ill I am.
Somedays I feel as though I am swallowed up by illness and that it rules my life. Then I read others posts and they seem to be so much sicker than I am and they are working full time and have familes and I wish I could do that. :worried:
However I know it was the right decsion to give up course as it was making me so tired that I went into a flare. Then I got stressed and anxious as I felt I couldnt keep up with what I should be, then I flared more. And on it went.:sad:
I have my family to think of and it wasnt fair on them, as they have to do everything when I am ill. I think this flare really frightened them.
Sorry to moan again. You must all be sick of me and I have only been here a short time.
Its just I know you all know how I feel. ( I hope!! and that you are not thinking lazy madam!!):worried::worried:
Deb
I am feeling sad as today I had to tell my course tutor I can no longer carry on with my course. My doc was furious I had even tried to go to college as he says I know I am not fit for work. I hadnt told him but my hubby phoned him to tell him why I was so ill. Then followed more talk of me not accepting how ill I am.
Somedays I feel as though I am swallowed up by illness and that it rules my life. Then I read others posts and they seem to be so much sicker than I am and they are working full time and have familes and I wish I could do that. :worried:
However I know it was the right decsion to give up course as it was making me so tired that I went into a flare. Then I got stressed and anxious as I felt I couldnt keep up with what I should be, then I flared more. And on it went.:sad:
I have my family to think of and it wasnt fair on them, as they have to do everything when I am ill. I think this flare really frightened them.
Sorry to moan again. You must all be sick of me and I have only been here a short time.
Its just I know you all know how I feel. ( I hope!! and that you are not thinking lazy madam!!):worried::worried:
Deb