Ok it is time to face up to it. Work are trying to get rid of me because I am sick.
When I started my job here they thought I was great and then a year in I got put into ICU and got diagnosed with Lupus. At first work were great and I informed them that I had probably had Lupus for a while and now I was on meds I would go into remission and be fine.
Well it hasn't worked out like that. I have had to take about 30 days sick a year. I couldn't help it and a lot of them I have been in hospital on oxygen but I guess all of that makes me a difficult employee. I have had loads of appointments to but I make sure I always take leave for those which most of the rest of the office doesn't but I figure lets be the least trouble as possible. But that hasn't made any difference.
At a meeting last month the Director made it very clear she wanted me out. Even then I didn't want to think it was anything to do with me being sick. My body doesn't work as well as some people but I fight hard against it and do everything I can and therefore work a darn sight harder than some people in this office. I went home and told my friends and family about the meeting and they all said it is happening because your sick and I said no surely not!
I did agree that the way this meeting was held was unprofessional and really bullying me so I put in an official grievance.
Got the report back from that at the weekend. The greivance wasn't upheld (not a great shock there, as the person who ran the grievance is best friend of the Director) but the reports mention my health all the way through it.
I have taken advice from the Citizens Advice Buro (not the right spelling but I cant work it out sorry!) and appealled with the hope they will pay me to leave quietly.
Alongside all of this I am flaring and can barely move but I am still coming into work. Everyone keeps asking me why. I am not sure really apart from I still believe in the job that I do and still believe in working hard for a living and not going off sick unless I literally cant breathe or have a temp over 38C.
The trouble is this is making me face my limitations with Lupus and I am finding that so hard. I have been diagnosed for 3 years now and have fought this disease all the way thinking that it was the right way to do things. But I feel like I have lost the battle and failed.
Sorry this more of a moaning post than I meant it to be but I just wondered if any of you guys had gone through anything similar and did you manage to come out the other end with any self dignity.
K
When I started my job here they thought I was great and then a year in I got put into ICU and got diagnosed with Lupus. At first work were great and I informed them that I had probably had Lupus for a while and now I was on meds I would go into remission and be fine.
Well it hasn't worked out like that. I have had to take about 30 days sick a year. I couldn't help it and a lot of them I have been in hospital on oxygen but I guess all of that makes me a difficult employee. I have had loads of appointments to but I make sure I always take leave for those which most of the rest of the office doesn't but I figure lets be the least trouble as possible. But that hasn't made any difference.
At a meeting last month the Director made it very clear she wanted me out. Even then I didn't want to think it was anything to do with me being sick. My body doesn't work as well as some people but I fight hard against it and do everything I can and therefore work a darn sight harder than some people in this office. I went home and told my friends and family about the meeting and they all said it is happening because your sick and I said no surely not!
I did agree that the way this meeting was held was unprofessional and really bullying me so I put in an official grievance.
Got the report back from that at the weekend. The greivance wasn't upheld (not a great shock there, as the person who ran the grievance is best friend of the Director) but the reports mention my health all the way through it.
I have taken advice from the Citizens Advice Buro (not the right spelling but I cant work it out sorry!) and appealled with the hope they will pay me to leave quietly.
Alongside all of this I am flaring and can barely move but I am still coming into work. Everyone keeps asking me why. I am not sure really apart from I still believe in the job that I do and still believe in working hard for a living and not going off sick unless I literally cant breathe or have a temp over 38C.
The trouble is this is making me face my limitations with Lupus and I am finding that so hard. I have been diagnosed for 3 years now and have fought this disease all the way thinking that it was the right way to do things. But I feel like I have lost the battle and failed.
Sorry this more of a moaning post than I meant it to be but I just wondered if any of you guys had gone through anything similar and did you manage to come out the other end with any self dignity.
K